Today is my 31st birthday, and I'm going to work hard to enjoy it today, because it's been one hell of a year. But I can't deny that I also woke up to a bit of sadness, as I would have loved to be waking up next to Shane today. I know he would have … Continue reading A Bittersweet Birthday
It seems that in the wake of tragic events, we find ourselves feeling helpless and overwhelmed. We so desperately want to see change in the world, but we back away from making an effort by telling ourselves that one person can't make that much of a difference. And frankly, it's a lot more work to … Continue reading You, Yes You, Can Change the World
I feel like I've been simultaneously sad and excited to write this post. Sad because the training itself is over, and there won't be any more 3-day weekends spent with my entire, wonderful yoga group. But mostly excited because I completed my long-term goal of becoming a yoga teacher! Eight months flew by SO fast, … Continue reading Yoga Teacher Training: Final Weekend & Graduation!!
Man, this past weekend was freakin' hard. For some reason I feel more emotional now than I was before. I continue to think about Shane all day every day and miss him so damn much. And every single day I long for him, sometimes so much so that I feel sick and push myself into … Continue reading A Weekend of Goodbyes
It has now been a little over a month since Shane's death, and what a crazy month it has been. I still recall those first couple of weeks with incredible detail, as I struggled to move from the bed we shared and just couldn't believe what was happening. I lost five pounds in a week … Continue reading Finding Spirituality as a Theist
How have 8 training weekends passed already?! I'm so sad the program is coming to an end, but I also know that there is so much to look forward to once I'm certified. And of course, I'll never stop seeing all of my yoga friends. Though if it's not for a full 18 hours in … Continue reading Yoga Teacher Training: Weekend 8
It has now been almost three weeks since Shane's death, and life has changed more than I could have ever imagined. Each day is so different from the last, and I've learned to embrace every single feeling, emotion or thought that comes up. It sucks to have to find a new normal, but it's a … Continue reading The Power of Connection
This past yoga teacher training weekend was probably the most crucial one for me yet. It was the first time I had been out of the house since Shane's death the weekend prior. I felt really anxious on the way there, because I didn't know if I was ready to face people yet and I … Continue reading Yoga Teacher Training: Weekend 7
Shane, the love of my life, lost his life to suicide on July 22nd. I loved him dearly and miss him every day; I can't believe it's been almost a week already. We connected on a deep level because of our craziness and had such fun together. Even though our personalities were quite different, we … Continue reading The Man I Love
I'll tell you what it's like. It's the freaking worst. It's exhausting. It's not an easy thing to explain to those who don't have it, because it's a feeling that others simply may have never experienced. While some of us can manage it effectively, it never really goes away. Last week I was having … Continue reading What Is It Like To Have Mental Illness?