As much as I like to think I have my life under control, once in a while I’ll have a setback. This past week was one of those times.
Without getting into too much detail, for several days last week I was super emotional, depressed and unmotivated. I felt so guilty about this, because I usually thrive on being productive. I am happiest when I’m working on my hobbies and with my favorite people, yet all I could seem to do was lie on the couch and do nothing but intentionally feel like crap. I had been slowly getting better, so having another episode like this was frustrating and disappointing. I’m always very hard on myself when I have a setback, but more and more I’ve come to accept that there is one thing I can always to do to get me back on the road to normalcy: Netflix & Chill.
No, not like that…get your mind out of the gutter! I mean lie on the couch and watch something funny on Netflix. Right now, I’m binge-watching Raising Hope and I laugh out loud at every episode. For that moment, I forget why I’m depressed in the first place and I just stay present…and laugh. Those little moments of laughter eventually add up to me getting up off of the couch and doing something productive, even if it’s just washing dishes or doing laundry.
My ultimate goal is to stop kicking myself when I’m already down. I’m always so obsessed with getting stuff done, but I’m slowly realizing that it’s okay to take a few hours, or even several, to do nothing but chill out if it will help me in the long run. It’s a much better solution than some of my former bad habits. I’m the type of person who sometimes operates in extremes; either I’m super motivated and excited or I’m depressed and emotional. Finding that middle ground will likely bring me more peace and satisfaction, so I’m working towards that.
So, if you’re like me and sometimes get to a really low point, don’t beat yourself up. Grab a blanket, your pet, a pillow and the remote, and just chill out and laugh for a while. Then, when you’re ready, pick yourself up and move forward, leaving your issues behind you. Remember that it’s a temporary feeling and it doesn’t define you. There’s much more to our lives that we have yet to experience, so the better we can manage our issues, the sooner we can live those moments.